Great is Thy Faithfulness!

I love this old hymn...it is one of my very all time favorites....

"Great is Thy faithfulness!" "Great is Thy faithfulness!"
  Morning by morning new mercies I see;
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided—
    "Great is Thy faithfulness," Lord, unto me!

Tonight I was reminded of God's faithfulness to me over the past few years.  For those who don't know my story, I'll give you a shortened version.  Ronnie and I tried for years to get pregnant and could not.  Finally the doctor told us it could not happen for us medically.  Obviously we were heartbroken.  All I had wanted was to have a child and now I was told that could never be.  It took time, but through this time in my life God began to show me things about Himself I might not ever have seen if I didn't go through infertility.  I learned that He is a GOOD God, regardless of my circumstances.  And I learned that I find my deepest strength in life when I can stand in the midst of my darkest hour, throw my hands back in utter abandonment, and just worship Him because He is HOLY and worthy of all my praise.  is it easy to do?  No.  But when you can get to that place in your life when you can say nothing else matters next to knowing Him, then it becomes second nature.

Through all of this, God did give me children.  It just wasn't like I thought I would have a child.  But I got triple blessed, because He gave Ronnie and I our hearts desire through the wonderful gift of adoption.  We adopted the 3 most amazing and beautiful boys you could imagine.  They are so much a part of our lives that I can't imagine them not always being here.  This coming May 7, 2011 will be 7 years to the date that our adoption was finalized and God made our family complete.

So tonight we were cleaning out our office at home and I came across all the photos from our adoption day, mementos from friends and family during that time, and just sweet memories of all that God did for us.  And I just had to sit back and reflect on how faithful He has been to me through the years.  He gave me strength for each day when I had none.  He truly turned my mourning heart into one full of joy.  And He gave me a gift in these 3 boys that I could've never recieved any other way.  And so all I can do tonight is sit and thank Him.  How amazing is His love for us.  Even when we don't understand why things happen to us, or why our dreams sometimes get shattered, or why we have to go through what we're going through, He never leaves our side.  He remains right there with us, walking with us through each step, each phase of our lives.  Sometimes we may not see Him or hear Him.  But that's not because He isn't there.  He promises us in His Word that He will NEVER leave us or forsake us.  And during my darkest hours of infertility, even when I couldn't see Him, I knew He was there leading me to a deeper place in Him.  One that would change my heart and in turn, change my life.  I came out of that experience a worshipper.  Thank God for trials that allow us to seek Him, and find His heart and learn His nature through it all!

So tonight I proclaim again, Great is Thy faithfulness Lord!  Isn't it the most amazing gift to be a child of the Most High God!!!!!!!!

Keep praising!

Stacy